I love my boyfriend I really do, for the most part. Aside his anger issues he’s a pretty good guy…. Sometimes the bad does outway the good…but as of right now, I don’t see myself with anyone else…. Mainly cause I haven’t given myself the chance to. He has my heart, but I don’t know what to do. I don’t wanna give up on him, but I also am tired of being embarrassed and disrespected. I wanna understand his thought process. I always thought smoking weed would make you more mellow and chill… But in his case it’s not even enough to make him chill. I personally don’t smoke weed, I have in the past maybe 4 times my whole life… So I can’t say my choices are any better. I hate the phrase “taking a break” because I feel like, shit between couples should be handled and dealt with … But I do need a break. A break from his raging attitude and a break to just kind of be me. I didn’t give myself enough time between this relationship and my last, I just wanna be happy and I want someone who’s gonna better me… Not keep me from growing. And I don’t mean that in an educational way, knowledge is gained in many other places other than school, teach me about life, give me adventures . I don’t want your only knowledge to be how to roll a blunt.
I crave knowledge, of anything and everything.